I am doing this 31 days of BPD challenge because of the stigma associated with Borderline Personality Disorder. It is probably one of the last talked about (honestly) and explained from personal experience than any other mental illness. All these prompts have to do with characteristics of BPD, whether to do with specific symptoms and criteria of the illness or vague questions about items that are related to the illness, ex questions about specific relationships.
- Day 6: How’s your love life?
My love life sucks. I am a heart breaker and have destroyed every relationship I’ve been in. I am currently single for the first time in my life. I have always gone from one relationship to the next since I was 15 years old. I have never had the chance to love myself, or be alone. My current goal is to be single for as long as I possible, taking it month by month. I want to over come my fear of being alone and I want to battle out these episodes alone. I am so tired of hurting people, I am tired of being this way. Deep down, all I want is a healthy, honest, happy relationship. But, I need to be healthy, honest and happy with myself first in order to have a successful relationship later down the road.
I get lonely at times, but I have been keeping myself busy with working out, quit drinking, therapy, this new website of mine, working and spending extra time with my kids working on projects together. I’ve even lost 10 pounds! There has been so much self-pride lately and I hope it stays this way.